addiction

 

You sit there

inert, lifeless;

needing my attention

to bring you alive.

I hesitate,

though it’s quiet now

with the children asleep

and the traffic

just the mild, sporadic

sigh of a solitary car,

instead of the earthquake rumble

of the heavy equipment and

daytime’s bustling progress.

Silence,

or what passes for it

in the twenty-first century,

invites introspection;

that deep soul-searching

which is a true poet’s life’s blood.

Yet I am new to this calling

and diving deeply is

still frightening.

So I stick to the shallows

of my descriptions,

and all the while

you sit there

inert, lifeless,

yet still somehow singing your

Siren song.

The way the cigarette whispers

or alcohol taunts,

the way the drug promises,

you call to me.

There are ‘things’ to do,

productive ‘things’,

but they are delayed

and some will remain undone,

as I answer your call

and bring you brilliantly to life.

And in return

you fill my eyes,

my ears with you,

and inject me

with electronic Demerol

until the test pattern

of sleep finally takes me.

 

                        KWF

                        11/24/03